GRRRRR.....! Warning....some may find my language offensive...

OK. Now I'm getting downright cranky. Seriously. WTF is taking so freakin' long with the PA and to exit FC?! Yeah, yeah, I know...PA is undergoing "increased scrutiny". Blah, blah, blah...I'm still aggravated. Another damn week down and no PA and no word that I've exited FC. Pissy? Yep. Am I being unreasonable? Hmmm....maybe. Doesn't change the fact that I've had no movement in, like, for-freakin'-ever. After the absolute hell during the paperchase when I came this close (picture my fingers just a smidge apart) of my dreams being completely crushed and not even being able to adopt and having to wait over 2 months for a form to come in the mail, that should have been done in 2 days, in order for me to proceed, and the waiting 10 weeks for my referral (although he was worth it), I want a damn break in my timeline (sorry for the run on sentence)! I do! Selfish? Probably. Tough. I'm feeling sorry for myself and scared to death of what PGN will throw at me when it has its chance.

Social visit pics!.. and "woe is me"

I received some social visit pics last night...

I miss him so much! I'm in a sad/bad place right now emotionally. 1)This wait for PA and to hear we're out of FC is a tough one. It's hard to believe that PA was coming in less than 30 days just a couple of months ago. I'm getting close to twice that now. 2)I don't feel comfortable buying things just yet for Kevin...superstitious. 3)I can't plan a visit trip again because there's an "internal issue" at my agency and trips have been suspended (I hope temporarily). 4)This is the longest time I've been away from my favorite place on earth...Disney...and I can't plan a trip until Kevin's home. And 5) (This is the thing that is probably making everything else worse)...I'm PMSing! UGH! I NEED some good news!

Waiting, waiting waiting...

I'm dying here waiting for my case to take a step forward. I'm at a standstill waiting for PA and to hear we're out of FC. It's so frustrating not being able to do anything but wait. So. I emailed the Embassy yesterday just so I could feel like I was doing something. I did this knowing full well that I'd get the standard response, but I did it anyway...I wonder how nuts I'll be when we're in PGN...

I did receive surprise visit pics today, though. It's funny because they were taken the night we gave Kevin back to the FM. Oh, how I miss my boy!

Speaks for itself....

Visit trip montage...

http://www.onetruemedia.com/otm_site/view_shared?p=27443e9bab5b2c1c88ac16

Back from the visit trip

First off, I simply cannot believe I forgot to take the laptop! I so wanted to post on the adoption sites and to blog while we were there, but, crap.

When we got to the first airport to check in and get the boarding passes, I had my contact simply flip out of my eye. That never happens to me. Then, while waiting in line to board this "puddle jumper"http://www.aircraft-charter-world.com/airliners/canadair200.htm, I managed to drop my water bottle which then rolled down between multiple people's legs before someone grabbed it for me. I started hoping that these were not omens for the flight....Thankfully, I had no problems. Finally, we got on a larger plane...http://www.airliners.net/open.file?id=0222841.

Kevin was an absolute joy and I'm madly in love! The trip was much too short and it was heartbreaking to give him back to the FM.

Without further ado, a "few" pics...

2 month doctor visit

Late last night the email came with Kevin's 2 month doctor visit update. He is up to 7lbs, 10ozs; length is up to 52.7cms; and HC is at 35.1cms. He's still not on the charts, but is growing steadily. This is what his doctor had to say: he is an alert and active little boy who likes to look around and shows interest in all that goes around him will listen attentively when spoken to and makes some initial cooing noises and will also smile in response, shows active,symmetrical, mainly reflex movements of arms and legs and will also move his head from side to side. I am told that he takes well his formula(Nutramigen) and is also receiving his ordered vitamin supplement. Upon evaluation today I found him in good health with a normal physical and neurological exam

So, without further ado, here are his latest pics!

WooHoo!

While I was working this weekend, an email came from my agency to update me that the SWI were successfully completed on 3/26! It's probably my imagination, but it seems like I get new update either on a Friday or on the weekend when I can't really celebrate since I work back-to-back 16 hour shifts...Regardless, I'm thrilled to have that step over. Now I'm waiting to get out of FC and to hear that I have PA. It's moving along nicely (I am furiously knocking on wood as I type this-don't want to jinx myself).

I am starting to get nervous/scared about the trip. One week from tomorrow we leave...