Taken aback....

I've been waiting for Kevin's 4 month doctor update with pictures. Looking at his latest pics took my breath away. He's sitting up in them and has wonderful neck control. He's also rolling over now. Those two things show wonderful development, but were also a punch in the gut. I wasn't prepared for it and it brought tears to my eyes. I miss him and I want to go see him. I don't know what to do. Part of me says to wait it out, part of me says to go....

This is the doctor's update:

a very active and alert 4 month old baby boy shows a normal development, he shows excellent control of his neck muscles and will keep the head very straight in the midline when pulled to the sitting position, he likes to look at his fingers and will put them in front of his eyes to do so, reaches out for things that if he manages to grab will immediately go into his mouth, I am told that he is able to roll from his stomach onto his back. He continues to enjoy being talked to and will smile and make some vocal noises in return. I found him in good health with an otherwise normal physical and neurological assessment, his weight is 10 lbs 15 oz, length of 59.8 cms and head circumference of 38.7 cms.