Well, I risked you thinking I was horrible, now I'll risk you thinking I'm an idiot.
After calling the SPCA to check up on Carly, we found out that they were going to euthanize her. Roni and I talked about the decision that had been made. Had we given her enough of a chance? Had we tried enough options? How about the crappy baby gates that we had...maybe a better gate would help take care of things...one she couldn't knock down. What about the all natural "Calming Treats" that we bought for her...had we tried those? What about a behavior modification trainer that will come in the house to help? Did we give her a chance to get used to a baby in the house so he wasn't something she had to, for the love of doggy god, see? The answer was no. We hadn't tried. Not really. Not hard enough. We hadn't done everything we could because it was inconvenient and we were overwhelmed with everything a new baby entails. It wasn't fair and the guilt was all consuming. I had done everything I could to save some baby mice in my house and not kill them in the process (remember this post?!http://waitingforkevin.blogspot.com/2007/06/just-wee-bit-freaked-now.html), but, dammit, I didn't try as hard for my dog. Well, we are now...we are now.
Welcome home Carly!