Saturday, September 15, 2007

Tired, so tired

At what age do kids start liking to sleep in? 'Cause, y'all? I forgot how awful it is on my body to get up every effin' day at 6:30...yeah, 6:30. Seems that the original 7:30 time he was getting up has gone by the wayside. 7:30 was bad enough, 6:30 sucks chunks. The thing is? It's such a waste of time in my mind. If he could just learn to be like his mama and sleep late, he wouldn't need 3 freakin' naps a day every 2 hours.

I'm kidding. I kid. Sorta.

I swear, he goes back down for a nap by 8:30 (or 2 hours after he gets up) and sleeps for 2 hours, gets up for 2 more hours, and sleeps 2 hours, gets up...you get the picture. I just thank God that he doesn't do that all through the night. He will wake up somewhere around midnight and I'll change him and he'll take a little formula, but I never get him out of his crib (if I did that, it would be all over but the shoutin', my friends) and he goes right back to sleep. This all happens in about 5 minutes flat. Then he'll do the same thing anywhere between 3 and 4:30AM (usually around 3, but today it was 4:30...maybe a good sign?).

It does not matter what time I go to bed, so don't bother. I could go to bed at 9 and my body still wants to sleep until 10AM. It's just the way I'm wired. Naps usually make me feel groggy and just plain worse than if I didn't nap at all. Nothing I can do about it. It really sucks, though. I worked for several years at the 7AM 'til 3:30PM shift and my body never freakin' adjusted. I was constantly tired because of it. Working the weekend program for the past several years has been great. Just the two 16 hour days and I'm done. The rest of the week has been pure bliss for my biorhythm. OK, well, not so much on Mondays, but what do you expect? Still. It's been my best option. Well, the lottery would be my best option, but I'm a realist. And, why yes, I would quit my job if I won a ton of money. In a bleedin' heartbeat. I am not one that would be "bored", or whatever, if I didn't work. No offense to those who would actually want to keep working. I know a lot of people that feel that way. I don't get it, but I respect it. Not me. Fuck no. The thing is, I like my job. I like helping people. I love diagnosing telling the doctor what is wrong saying "I told you so" making suggestions to the doctor and saving patient's lives. Because I do. A lot. And I'm proud of that. I'm just....well....lazy, I guess. Not to put too fine a point on it, but I guess that's it. Huh. Oh well, not going to happen, but a girl can dream. Right? So. Anyway. Now there's a rumor that they may do away with the weekend program because of a problem that has happened while I wasn't there supervising. Fuck a duck. The place is simply falling apart without me. Somebody needs to step up to the plate and hold down the fort (cliches anyone?) until I get back. I don't wanna go back to a regular 5 day nursing work week!

Well, ah-hem, didn't I ramble off topic just a bit?!

6 comments:

Baby John's Crib said...

Tam,

Welcome to motherhood! As I type this bleary-eyed and somewhat incoherent, I can tell you that he will lose every sleep pattern over the next couple of months but the early AM wake-up.

I never thought I'd cherish the day that I could sleep until, gasp, 6:30 AM, but it has happened. I'd still rather sleep 'til 9, but anyday John sleeps past 5 is a blessing. You've got a couple of VERY LONG months ahead of you, but it does get better.

Also, I've slowly adjusted my bedtime to earlier. It was hell at first, but most days, I can now go to sleep around 11 PM. Yeah, it sucks, but bottom line, I think things are pretty much going to suck in the sleep arena for the next 5 years or so. But, then I hear John giggle or laugh out loud, I know that I'll survive. I'll probaby age 20 years in 5, but I'll survive.

Oh, BYW, I thought I was the only one to say "fuck a duck". I'm glad I'm not, LOL!

THE MERRILL FAMILY said...

Too funny Tam! Reading your post took me back a little over a year to when Garrett first came home and I was the sleep deprived zombie. While it might not be working for you personally, it sounds like Kevin has some fantasic sleep habits established. Again, I recommend reading Healthy Sleep Habits, Happy Child. I promise it will get better -- or at least he'll train you up better. Email me if you ever want my two cents.
~Beckie

Terry said...

I think Kevin and Tommy must have been brothers in another life because their patterns are identical! Or maybe we're just first time moms and this is something that we must all go through.

So I think they're probably normal, but my oh my....I sure do wish I could sleep until 9 just one more time because I'm beginning to believe that I'm going to have to wake up between 1 and 3 times each night and start the day no later than 6:30-7:00 EVERY DAY for the rest of my life.

But I love it! No...that's a lie. I HATE being sleep deprived, but even if I sleep 10 hours a day I still feel like I need more. So while I hate not getting enough sleep in, I love waking up to smiles and slobbery imitation kisses every morning. I never thought I would enjoy being so exhausted. :)

And I'm not even home with Tom-Tom yet. When I do get home, maybe Danny will take over for a couple of mornings and let me sleep. That would be fantastic!

Terry

Pug Mom said...

Oh, dear, that's sad - very sad. I'm a big sleep fan, and I can only imagine the extreme torture of sleep deprivation that having a baby would inflict upon me. But hey, Kevin's beyond cute - you can't get mad at that adorable little face :)

Laurie & Damian said...

Theo came home on that schedule. We cut out the midnight bottle cold turkey and he was fine with it and now sleeps through the night. However, he is up at 5:30-6am and it is pure torture for me. We try to cajole him into sleeping another hour. haha. doesn't work. oh well.

Waiting4Sam said...

2 hours awake and then sleep...

this is what same does too, he was born 1/12 - what is kevins bday?

Yesterday however, he just had 2 naps, 9-11:30 and 2:30-5 it was pretty nice!

and sam sleeps from 7:30- 6:30 or 7-

waking up to eat at least once - just a little bigger than K too - about 15lb 14oz